How does one person receive so many blessings? The past couple of weeks I
have unfortunately found myself in a darker than usual mood. I haven't
found the answers myself when I enter this bleak and lonely plane, but
those close to me seem to realize at these times I'm unable to stand
alone and gather to hold me up. They keep me from falling into that
deep, dark hole that so frightens me that I might one day enter and
never return to feel the sunshine on my cheeks. This week alone I have
received gifts of love in self-help books, a smooth and magical stone,
phone calls just to 'check in' on me, another friend who won't let me
fade away, an introductory card from a new acquaintance - the list goes
on. It took me some time to realize these blessings, but I do thank each
and every person and God for awakening me from this dungeon. This
morning I see the red head on my woodpecker that visits our suet each
morning brighter than ever, a huge deer
standing in the yard where I've not seen one before. I'm anxious to
begin wrapping the Christmas gifts that have sat waiting for my
attention for a week. I am actually smiling. Earlier in the week I had written a poem asking 'who do I ask?'. This morning while reading it - I
understood my thoughts, but I didn't feel it. I'm ready to march on
again and for this I thank you all. I can't do it alone. I shared this
poem with very few, one being my daughter, Jacy. And her reply "the eye
sees not itself but by reflection, by some other things." --Julius
Caesar. She can see past my low ebbs and knows they will rise once
again. And for the second time she has put her heart, her sore knee, her
precious time into preparing to run another marathon to raise monies
for NMO research and awareness for the Guthy Jackson Foundation. I
couldn't be more proud of her taking action and realizing how fortunate
she is to be able to move as she wishes. I will be moving with her
this Saturday - in my mind - where all is possible. How blessed I am.
--Patti Lellock
And remember, to donate, visit Guthy Jackson Tribute Donations and write "in honor of Patti Lellock, who rocks." Only 2 days to go!!
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